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what do you see in me?
by ~LonelyEyes89

If OnlyEverytime i see you
It brings a smile to my face You make me laugh all the time And in my heart you hold a special place It amazes me to know How close we have become Because i know how withdrawn i am
When i feel so numb But you sparked in me
A light of hope I gave you my trust And tried to cope But i let my feelings change From being friends to wanting more I began to truly like you
Way down deep in my core I even really tricked myself Into thinking you felt the same So i let my guard down and told you But only hurt is what c If Only
by ~LonelyEyes89

Die HardI see the sherds of my broken heart Fall through the cracks of time So fragile it was And easy to break Like porcelain In a childs hand Try so hard To piece it back together But never can it be made new For the cracks still show As i slowly drift away And fade even more Every memory of you
Leaves me that much more dead inside I have lingered in this false hope
For longer than i wish to admit Why is it so hard To let go of your first love I tell everyone im done Even to you, i swore it But the facade i put up is growing thi Die Hard
by ~LonelyEyes89

By the Light of a New DayIn this place of pain and sorrow Is where i weep until the morrow Though in the dark and still of night I am still and strong with might Though i have hurt and i may cry I am willed enough to not die I show my pain to only me I do not want others to see For i want no pity at all I dont need it since i shall not fall Into the pits of despair Where for only themselves people care I allow my pain to show through Only in the safety of my room Some call it pride, some fear But cant you see its neither my dear It is merely safety for myself From cl By the Light of a New Day
by ~LonelyEyes89

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finally

Wed Oct 19, 2005, 7:26 AM

well, i have finally let go of my ex! it feels so good to not feel so bound by such a painful memory of what i once loved so much. i mailed off a letter to him this weekend as a final goodbye so that i would feel like i had some closure. i dont know if he has read it or even gotten it...but i dont care. i am going to burn the rest of the things i have from our relationship so that i will not be tempted to miss him anymore. the only thing i am keeping are the dvd's he bought me because i am partial to the movies. but other than that, i am ridding my life of the pain i allowed to come in when i hung on to that false hope of love that i thought i needed from him. gone are the days i wasted thinking of him and the nights i lost crying for him to be mine again. i have finally reached my point of clarity. i can see now that i dont need him anymore. i loved him with all i had but he couldnt see that. this is his loss, not mine. he is going to wake up on day and realize what he let go while i am doing great with my life without him in it. well...thats all for now....farewell

--court--

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